#day log

[shrinking-potato]

Liquid fast February 13-15 (48hrs)

Starting at 6:50pm on the 13th.

Weight (after food+clothes): 250.2

I might be able to go past this or have to break a little sooner. My family is doing dinner either Wednesday or Thursday night, so I’ll basically just fast until that dinner.

[dimadimoo]

I have to admit, I still crave a bit of approval or validation from others. It's not like I'm desperate for it, but I don't know, it's just kind of hard to explain…

So, I have this friend. Yeah, the guy from the Philippines I used to have a crush on. And he read this blog once and thought I hated him. Yup, him. We’re all good now though.

I met him through a tf community on discord, and he was the first to reach out to me. He said he liked one of my stories, and honestly, it made my day. And I felt seen, you know. Then I got to know him better and realized he's actually a really good writer. His stuff is so good.

Every time he shared his stories, naturally I’d always give him feedback, share my thoughts, and he seemed to appreciate them. He became my favorite tf writer, and yeah, I kinda idolized him. He’s just that cool, and his writing really fit with my taste.

One time, when he was traveling, I wrote a short story and sent it to him for feedback. What he said blew me away, it was way more than I expected. But, a part of me was like "Is he being for real??" It's not like I thought he hated my story or anything, but you know how it is... Sometimes you wonder if someone’s just being nice. Especially us Asians, we can be all polite and white lie or sugarcoat stuff even when we don’t really mean it. But in the end, I took his feedback as genuine.

Fast forward a week or so, I wrote another short story and sent it over. Obviously, I was super curious about what he’d think because he’s my close friend and I’m a big fan of his work. But all I got was, "Not this based on you getting food poisoning." And I was like… that's it...?? That’s all you got for me? I was hoping for more, something to help me improve, you know? But nope. I was kinda bummed.

After sitting with that feeling for a few days, I started wondering why I felt so down. Like, why did I need his validation so bad? And then it hit me: I’m still hung up on seeking approval from people. It’s a cold truth, but I’m learning to accept it... And let’s be real here, wanting feedback, especially from someone you’re close to and admire, is normal, right?

I read this post on Tumblr that said something like "You don’t need anyone’s approval for the stuff you create, but it’s totally valid to want it. Kudos and likes don’t define your creation’s worth, but damn, it feels amazing to get them." (I'll reblog the post iif I can find it again.)

So yeah, does it really matter?? Well… kinda, because he’s a friend and I like him. But at the same time… no... it doesn’t. I realized even before I sent him my story, it already got a few likes from others.

In the end, I’m glad I recognized this about myself. I acknowledged it and handled the feeling. Next time I catch myself falling into that trap, I’ll remind myself that what truly matters is the joy of creating stories or art.

[locallysourcedradio]

Tw blood (not shown just talked about)

Do yall hate it when you stub your toe and it just explodes? Like just a slight touch can make it bleed slightly. And if it's that delicate, imagine what happens when you apply all of your body weight on it.

So now I have a bloody sock and hey how was your weekend?

[cozylittleartblog]

@staff if you [change] the [design] of the fucking [dashboard] i will kill you

edit. i want it on the actual post that i am not actually making a de-th threat against the staff. that's shitty. the caption quotes the fucking costco hot dog meme, which i originally said in the tags. if any staff member sees this please do Not take it personally

[retributory]

if a bingqiu hater puts the blame on any weirdness in their relationship solely on binghe you KNOW they can't read. this is a freak4freak relationship okay. sqq is the guy that got offended and sulky because binghe DIDN'T hen-peck him into cuddling. he openly admits to loving the tearful lamb act. he likes having a clingy needy girlfriend he has to reassure constantly. he got so horny watching his husband pour qi into his dead body that he woke up and immediately pounced on him and fucked him straight into a qi deviation. when he heard the rumor that binghe raped him his internal argument was that this could never happen because if binghe wanted to have sex with you, you would just let him, so it's not rape. he's literally insane. they're perfect for each other in the sense that they're both bugfuck crazy.

[jesusmyking2024]

Perfect evening 💫

[kitamars]

doodles as i relive my spideyman phase from eighth grade

[jimmyhoffathecat]

Can we get a #PicklesSweep⁉️

[shepscapades]

[dbhc flavored] Hermit a Day May: Day 24 — Cleo!

[secretagentspydetectiveninja]

posting this with absolutely no context

[shrinking-potato]

Liquid Fast February 6 - ?

So the fast started at 8:20 pm on the 6th.

As of right now I’m a bit past 24hrs, feeling fine. Have had 390 cals (160 protein drink, 190 nutrition shake thing, 40 bing drink) of liquids. Just feeling tired.

Oh I also burned 600 cals at the gym, did 3 miles / 70 minutes on the treadmill.

I forgot to weigh this morning so idk my starting weight for this but I’m guessing like… 253? Idk. We’ll see once I hit tomorrow, I should probably be down a decent amount (food weight, idk). I’ll update in the morning.

And hopefully I’ll be going to the gym tomorrow too, will take a protein shake with me to be safe.

Now just to avoid the pizza my brother just made…

[postitforward]

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[tunaricebowl]

[metalmachination]

hey. your legs are on backwards?

[logmore]

A message from Ashtar.

[logan-the-artist]

they’re just good old-fashioned lover boys